this video sums up the year rather nicely.

be prepared to laugh out lout, drop your jaw in shock, chuckle quietly...it hits all the good notes.

there are two kinds of people in this world. well, actually...there are millions of kinds of people in this world. but I digress. for the sake of THIS discussion, let's say there's only two: people who can tolerant silence, and people who can't.

me? I am of the former. I'd even venture so far as to say that more often than not, I prefer the quiet. I have to remind myself to turn up the radio when I have a passenger in my truck, because usually I drive with it off....just me and my thoughts.

one of my workmates is DEFINATELY the latter. as a result, she tends to drop random verbal bombs into the silence that are as confusing as they are annoying.

today, as she was leaving, she popped out "it smells like blueberries." and then she just.walked.out. end of conversation. no time to respond. eh? you stepped in what? when I looked over at her desk, I spotted a cookbook that had (you guessed it) blueberry pie on the cover. LOL maybe not so random this time, but confusing all the same.

"all the flowers of all the tomorrows are in the seeds of today." - Indian Proverb

caught the damn redesign bug again. this time I decided I needed to go with green, because I adore it and it seemed a shame not to have a layout that reflected that. so, I hope you enjoy seeds of today.

Pee.Ess. when I say it's green, I do mean it's GREEN. so if your eyes have any particular allergies to that color, I'd stick with the layout you already have. but, if you wish to chance it, you can always change it back with the handy little drop down on the home page.

do you know who the Zac Brown Band is? they recently hit popularity with their song "Chicken Fried", if that helps any.

in order to truly appreciate their talent, you must hear them live. this is the song that got me enamored with this group, and every time I run across it, I have to stop whatever I'm doing and sing along. it's beautiful.

today has been a Very.Bad.Day. when I checked my bank account this morning, I discovered that there was a mistake on my paycheck...a pretty damn big mistake. a mistake that won't be rectified until my next paycheck.

so I had to do the jumbling act of figuring out what gets paid and what doesn't. thank god I have an understanding "landlord", because he's the one that is getting shorted. and I'm trying hard not to let myself feel embarassed because hey? there's not a damn thing I can do about it, nor did I do anything wrong. but having experienced first hand the shame of being jobless and poor and financially dependant on everyone else's good graces...methinks I've become a tad proud of my ability to take care of myself.

pride is a hard thing to swallow. I'm crabby and angry and have even less patience than normal (which is pretty sad). mother of all that's holy, I HATE asking for help. but if I just keep repeating to myself "it bothers me more than it bothers him..." maybe. just maybe? I'll start to believe it. and I won't feel so ashamed.