there is just too much going on right now. too much pain, and how can one body hold it all? my friend John passed away this morning. when I first got the news, I felt...nothing. just numb. but its hitting now, and damn it hurts. and I need to give and receive comfort from the person who shares my pain at his loss, but that's the last place I can turn to right now, because I'm not wanted.

so to Johnny...you are loved and will be missed by so many. there aren't enough words to explain how many lives you have touched and how deep the wound goes at your passing. you are at peace now, and I know your family is surrounded by people that love them...that love you...and will help them make it through this. peace to you, my friend.